Bottle, blackandwhite

Bottle, blackandwhite
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A little math problem we're trying to sort out.
Sophie sleeps about 12 hours every day. Before the Binkyectomy she slept about an hour during the day, and then a solid 11 at night. Until 7 or 8am.

Post-Binky:
2 hour nap (god bless it).
10 hours at night. She goes to bed at 8:30 or so. That has us up at . . .
yep, 6:30.
Most kids get up at some crazy early hour, but ours never did.
Until now.

Granted, 6:30 will feel late in about three weeks, but still, it's hurting.

In Rosy news, CRAZY movement all the time. Feeling totally stuffed and like I can't breathe, or use my right leg, and the heartburn is killing me. Braxton-Hicks contractions like I never had with Sophie. Three weeks to full term. Castor oil countdown?? I never wanted Sophie OUT, but man, this one is begging to come.

Kisses

Kisses
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We think we're getting molars.
The week after Binky.
Ughh.

But these are the times John asks me to see through my crazy frustrated fog and remember that she is in fact a person, not just out to make me crazy. She deserves to be comforted and kissed and rocked a bit more. We shouldn't laugh when her whines start to feel absurd. We should be better in moments like these. As hard as they are.

He is, afterall, the one who got up with her at 5:30 this morning.
We love you, Dada.

Relief

Relief
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Forgive me for not posting. It's been a long week and none of us are sleeping well, for various and unrelated reasons. I needed a few days off from most responsibility. And that's just when these lovely people called Grandparents happened to show up.

Fighting off a headcold and wondering when this terribly cramped and large baby will come?! Early? Late? Soon? Please? more baby stuff on the big blog.

First This

First This
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There are two more in the cornbread bowl series- but b/c of our excessive nudity, you'll have to sign in to Flickr to see them.

No crying yesterday, a great two-hour nap, and for the second time ever, she slept all the way through the night. Awesome. awesome. awesome. Trouble is, she's up before 7. I'm going to have to go to bed earlier. And I remind myself that in a month or so, this will feel like a very familiar hour of the day.

With Her Things

With Her Things
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Things are improving. We had a great music class this morning and even got our act together to take the camera- pics on Flickr, just click this one for more.

Waking Up

Waking Up
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Binky killed me tonight. No energy to post. A good first day without it, and a really hard second day. Not that she's crying for Binky. She's just p*ssed about the change, and I would be too. So I'm mustering uber-patience for it and I know it will sort itself out soon. On the positive end, she slept REALLY well last night. And so did I.

She was attempting to go to sleep tonight and looked up at me and said, "I love you Mama. Our walk was fun (we took an after-dinner stroll)." That's the stuff that makes me love her more than life itself.

Happy Doc

Happy Doc
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"Doctor Kit"- i told her it was a doctor kit and now she annouces herself as "Doctor Kit is here. Are you sick, Mama?" Loves loves loves it. One day I'll splurge for the nice Haba version, but in this transition to no-binky-sleep, she got a quick K-Mart surprise.

Update: The first nap is underway and she did really well. I had to explain the whole binky situation again and she got a little sad, so I asked if she wanted to rock for a minute and cuddle. Apparently there is some mental link between hair-twirling and sucking, as she wanted nothing to do with my hair (rejoice! rejoice!), closed her eyes, and went right out. It was a little bit beautiful to witness.